Is this question a stupid question? Does it makes sense?
I just cant find the literal question or word for it.
But let me express myself before i am robbed of this thinking i am having right now.
Today i came across an individual, who was so sure of their emotion. I mean they were not angry to make me feel bad, or were angry to show to the world. They were just angry.
I have seen people, who are happy, genuinely smiling. Not for the world to see, and react, but because they are genuinely happy.
They are just genuine.
And then I realized, i have never been such just ANGRY, or Just HAPPY or Just SMILING.
No, definitely not the genuine emotions. Its always to fake the things.
Then i realized that, not being able to feel any emotions or express any emotions is not an gift or an amazing thing.
Its just you are afraid to feel any real thing.
If i look around me, i feel nothing.
I am a good person to everyone around me, i am not a bad guy.
I am the guy you can trust.
And that necessarily doesnt mean i am a good guy.
It means i am just a shallow guy who has no likes, desires.
If it benefits me, i go there. If it doesnt i dont.
Its as simple as that.
But nope, this is not life.
Going through life without feeling anything, is not life at all.
Its just living while being dead.
Then i asked myself, what is that one place where i dont back off, i am the real me.
I realized, i had it. And it was not any human or anything.
It was GYM.
The gym was the place, where i could be who i wanted to be.
The place, i would aspire to be everyday.
The place, that aspires me to be the best version of myself and aim for better.
The place that is there, always. It doesnt cheat. It doesnt expect.
Its just there.
Its therapy.
And i thank god, in every chance that, THANK GOD I MET GYM.
I cant imagine my life without gym.
So, GYM is my Ground.
WHat is yours Ground?
